Project 1 Compilation

Mini spiral staircase

Made of chipboard. This took me two hours!

1st project at BAC

First day of school...

...kicked my ass.

Location:My head

First day of my masters

Location:Boston Architectural College

Forgetting Boston

After three days of near constant rain, I crawled out of my cave and found this:


Doing some work and snacking on honey nut toasted oats.

Gawd awful smell in my apartment...

...and probably all over the hall. Sorry, neighbors. I almost decided to just order chinese, but then I felt like I needed to be creative with my dinner tonight.

I LOVE this bacon-wrapped scallop appetizer I make every once in a while but was not up to waiting an hour, so I tried to incorporate it into a pasta dish. I combined seared scallops, brown sugar, crisp bacon, sun dried tomatoes, red pepper, lemon zest and juice, garlic etc.. and pasta together in various manners to make what I thought would be a delicious meal.

Now, the apartment smells like "Bigfoot's dick" and my stomach will not forgive me and continues to flavor the air with foul wafts. It has NEVER smelled so bad in this place.

So much for trying to be creative, but at least I tried something new. Now for some Doritos and Changs chinese tomorrow.

Home Alone!

Dave is spending the weekend in NY with old friends which means I am on my own.

I forgot what I was missing! Singing Glee at the top of my lungs for hours, leaving the toilet seat down, not having to clear my hair from the shower drain, allowing the A/C run without feeling guilty....

I must really like this guy to give all this up. Love you Dave!

Sola

Today I made a step towards independence: I went to see a movie completely alone. It was thrilling and, although the film Eat, Pray, Love wasn't as good as the book, totally worthwhile. I suppose I was envisioning that either I would be the only one in the theater or it would be packed with couples with myself as the sore thumb sticking out. I found myself in quite good company with many solo-theater goers that sprinkled the seats around me.

Try it and see how you feel.

Location:Chestnut Hill

Going to a Movie Alone

I just finished reading Eat, Pray, Love . This book came to me in a good time in my life, helped me through a lot. Thanks to my friend Lauren (and the New York Times) who recommened it. Choosing books is too overwhelming so I tend to follow the pack.

Tomorrow I will venture on my own for a first - going to a movie alone! Not a huge leap, but I'm excited.

Gelato

Happy Birthday, Graham! Yummy watermelon gelato in the North End in Boston.

Location:North End

New path

Got into the Boston Architectural college MA program. Very excited about new things to come.


Until next blog...

The last post made me laugh. It's been a while since I've visited the site, but so much has happened in the time that has passed.

The psychiatric hospital helped throw me into the trenches of psychology, my own mental health has been severely tested, and hasn't necessarily remained intact. In the course of this position at the adolescent lock-down ward, I'd had a pee-soaked blanket thrown in my face, groped twice, ass-slapped once, and was even attacked by a coworker, verbally as it may be.

With all of these horrible experiences, I still come away with an incredible set of relationships, contributions and memories.


The last few months have been a revelation. I have dedicated 5 years (and about $100,000) to prepare for a grad degree in psychology, but due to who knows what, I have decided to pursue a new direction--design.

I hate the way so many people glorify their own revelations but fail to acknowledge the nitty-gritty, the anxiety, the depression, the self-loathing. My "revelation" was ugly. I was consumed with fear, but I wasn't sure what I was afraid of, which was further horrifying. How can I fix myself when I can pinpoint what's broken? But, with the help of some do-gooder antidepressants, therapy and, more importantly, friends and family (including my cats Rexy and November) I'm coming out of my funk with a new optimism for my future.

I think its ironic how I've been a dedicated (until recently) student of psychology for years but just last month my mind prevented me from functioning like I had been any further. I ended up going to the ER, diagnosed with a panic attack, took a Xanax and took a nap.

Now, I'm back in Boston taking it easy and focusing on myself.

Goals: worry less, criticize self and others less, love self more, etc...


Until next blog...

New job!

After four months of searching and sending and inter- and -viewing, I FINALLY got a job. I'm now one of the new Mental Health Associates at Arbour Hospital. It's a lockdown psychiatric hospital! Stories to come.