Multidisciplinary. Tangential.
Searching for awareness.
Sparks of ideas.
Past/present/future
At this very moment in my creative practice, I am searching
for an explanation for myself. Behavior comes before words and what it is. I
make, then I think. This may not be the best approach, but then again we are
taught there is no wrong answer or one right way of doing things. I make what I
feel. It feels particularly tangentian, one project from another. Light bulb
filament sculpture to scrap walnut table with holes to tubes of clay as a form of
language. I dllsakfjfjfjfd lsjajffdkj this is fun to keep typing but my arms
are already sore. I like to make things. I have ideas. Lots of ideas but can’t
reconcile why they interest me and I feel like they should be explained. This
is where I am at in my creative process. I have lots of skills MAD skills but
don’t know how to apply them. Well, I do know how I want to apply them but the
academic setting is putting forth a challenge (whether they are or are not
isn’t what is important, it is my own perceived pressure of what I should be
putting forth) to explain what is going on. I see myself in the context of my
peers. My classmates. I compare myself to what they are doing and struggle to
find myself putting forth critical work. My friend told me about beauty for
beauty’s sake by Dave Hickey I think and I am excited to read about him. That
is a good thing about reading precedents, even in music, they are able to
express my thoughts in words better than I can. Dave Hickey suggests that, in a
time of political art, massive and numerous political art, art and design, blah
blah for their own sake, because they are interesting to look at, isn’t
necessarily bad. Is it bad? I don’t think so. It could be a simple and honest
gesture on its own, a measure of pure aesthetics. Simple. Honest. It is what it
is. You don’t need to read into it. In my creative practice, I am practicing to
be creative. I have skills. I want to learn more skills. I am not monogamous
with material. I sleep around. Some are better for different purposes. Or Ideas
may be a better word than purposes. I have and idea for an object that can give
you information. THAT object, you can read into it. You’re supposed to. Like an
infographic. I LOVE a good infographic. Can you have an info-object? I think so.
This is what excites me. I have a background in psychology. I am interested in
making objects, and this idea popped into my head. Why did it pop in my head? I
don’t know. Something in art school probably pissed me off and I this feels
rebellious to me. I feel like I cross the lines of cheesy often. But I want to
accept that maybe cheesy is for me. Cheese is delicious. People eat it up. Ok.
What should I write about now. I like certain things. But it’s hard to describe
yourself, isn’t it? Others can describe me better, I think. But I know so many
things about myself I am AFRAID of making any kind of firm statement that I
don’t. what if I’m wrong? I don’t like feeling dumb but yikes this is getting
to psychological, eh? OK get back on track. Right, creative practice. Searching
for myself, what is going on with my choices, being multidisciplinary and
tangential. Tangents can be great. This isn’t about that, though. My materials
may be unrelated from one project to another but there must be some common thread
that I can come up with that will include all of what I am interested in
making. Light bulbs, tables, data-inspired objects.
